sendirian

IT'S the tyme when u feel so alone in this world. lyke n-o-o-n-e even cares. and n-o-o-n-e ever understands. rasa terok dan keji. kejam dan jahat. bodoh dan takguna.
when u think u got it all, everything's under control, but the problems just keep adding on.
when u try ur best, but things are not going easy on u.
when u keep pretending dat everything is ok but nothing is. and u keep lying urself coz it seems better dat way.

bila rasa mcm takdak apa dah boleh buat. dan terlalu penat utk hidup krna hidup pn rasa mcm mati. watever u do it just doesnt work. mslh smakin bertambah dan takdak apa pn bisa membantu. feels hopeless. lemah dan tak berdaya sgt. but u keep walking n struggling coz life is not over yet. tiada pilihan laen, life must go on. feels so alone in dis world, but i'm thankful bcause i am a muslim, dan apa pon jadi, jika tiada sape pn blh berdiri di blkg n bg support, i noe i have Him. Dia tetap bersama kita dlm susah senang. rasa hina sgt sprti xlayak minta tlg kpdNya. tp Dia Maha Mendengar , Maha Pengampun , Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang, Thank You Allah. 

hati aku dah rosak sgt kot. i myself damaged it and i myself will fix it. rasa cam nak buang hati neh jauh2 n live without having to think about penyakit hati. tp apa erti hidup tanpa hati? benarkah lg bahagia? i don't noe. cuba dan kemudian baru tahu. tp jika tiada hati, apa gunanya ada penawar hati. setiap penyakit ada penawarnya. hati yg tenang, dat is my desire. but the path towards it keeps being more difficult as i walk forward. yes,

I tried so hard and got so far , But in the end it doesn't even matter , I had to fall to lose it all , But in the end it doesn't even matter

namun tiada erti putus asa di tengah jalan. there's no use of living if i'm gonna give up in the end. tak bermakna.

And for my upholders, i thank you. all of you.